Sarah's Poem For Her Daddy... on his Birthday.

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I helped you get ready at night
I would ask you questions about what would happen if you got hurt
Then you would grab me and hold me tight
You told me that would never happen because you are always alert
I always thought if you would get hurt it would be doing what you love
Then the worst day of my life came
I didn’t understand what the talk was of
I felt like I was to blame
Who is to help Sean with his baseball glove
Who was going to come to take pictures at my sports games
I think back to the memories
Playing volleyball in the yard, taking long car rides, comforting me
Who would have thought that you would be taken away by a fall
I can say many people also agree
I wish I could spend one more day with you
That day I would spend hugging you with all my might not letting you go.
I wish you could be here for the rest of my life
To see me if I am to become a wife
To see grandchildren grow up.
But the one thing that I miss a lot
Is the father daughter dances
To see little girls twirling with their dad’s
And knowing that they have it good and they have no idea
To see daughters laughing with their dads
And knowing that they will wake up to see their dad in the morning
I miss those memories
I wish there was one more day I could spend with you
Cooking the food we both loved, going fishing one more time, having those
Comforting words of encouragement when the tears were flowing
But those days are over now and it’s hard to realize and understand
That my daddy will never be here again
To tell me what’s right and wrong
To tell me that everything is going to be okay
And there’s no reason to get upset
Now there is a reason.
And I don’t think that will ever go away
You will never be replaced I hope you know that
Many people can tell me to move on and that you’re in a better place
But the best place you can be is by my side holding me in your arms
I haven’t grasped the thought yet and I do not know if I ever will
That the day you dropped me off at school
You gave me a hug and kiss on the forehead and told me you would see me later
I am still waiting for later and I will be waiting for the rest of my life
Until I see my daddy again.

by Sarah Cooney
June 10, 2009